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Monday, 16 November 2009

So..I recently got dumped by my not so amazing bf..

I'm gonna kind of do an experiment. There are so many dating sites out there saying they can find you a match. I signed up on plentyoffish.com as a 20 yr old female looking for a male aged 19-23. before I blocked out anyone older than 23, I received a lot of msgs from men older than me. usually early 30's to mid fifties. Most of them were 'hey im older than 23, but age doesn't really matter if u love someone'. my response to them was 'yes it does. try saying that to someone under 18 & see how fast u land yourself in jail.' Now that I've cut men out that are older than 23, I haven't gotten many messages. Either I'm just not attractive to guys my age, or I just look too young for guys my age to like me, and look young enough for the old perverts.

I have received a couple msgs from guys 18 & older, 2 of which I'm curious about. I know online dating isn't a good idea, but I figured I might as well try to see what the big deal was. Yes, its exciting to find new msgs from guys. I ignore the ones that say babe, or try to sweet talk me. I respond to the ones that actually ask clean questions about me, not how big parts are...

If anyone actually ends up reading this, let me know,.

Thursday, 03 September 2009

I do NOT have an Eating Disorder...

k. I know there are way too many blogs about skinny girls. If all you're gonna do is complain, than don't read it. Save the rest of us the trouble of having to read about how u hate reading about them.

     Recently I was talking to my so called best friend. I informed her that I had finally gained weight, & was up to 100 lbs. I was 80 lbs at the beginning of the summer. She than told me that I'm anorexic & I need to get help. This was coming from a girl that's overweight. I've been trying to gain weight for years, & haven't been successful until now. I eat pretty much all day long, I'm always hungry. No I don't throw up after I eat. My metabolism is way too high..I hate it. I'm probably one of the only girls that complain about being too skinny. Everywhere I look there are ads of how to lose weight..What about those of us that want to gain it? People have been telling me for years that I'm too skinny, that I need to eat more, that I need to get help for my Eating Disorder...that I don't have. I'm not in denial about it either. I've never been one to be like OMG i'm so fat. I need to stop eating.
    I've known people like that. One of my bf's friends gf's is like that. She's just a little bit bigger than me. We all went out to eat at Wing Night. She didn't eat anything. I offered her some of my food, she wouldn't even eat a tiny french fry..It was one fry, I mean come on...I felt bad for eating, but I wasn't going to stop just because she wasn't. Later, when we got back to my bf's house, her bf handed her a twizzler & she took tiny bites..It was sad. She had to have been starving, but she still wouldn't eat.
    What do you say to someone like that? Yeah I know it's a problem she has to work out herself, but she's only 16, and she's not fat, not even chubby a lil bit..I don't get why people think of themselves as fat when they're really not. I've heard girls that were skinnier than me say that they were fat..I just look at them like 'ok, if you're fat, than I'm freaking HUGE...' I've had people give me dirty looks if I got a piece of pizza, than they say that I shouldn't eat that...I was like ok wat should i eat than? They than told me that I should just eat 1 lil tiny carrot...& that's it, you know, cuz I'm so fat & all..
   I know that this blog really doesn't make a whole lot of sense, but neither does the fact that i've been up since 2 pm yesterday & it's not 7 in the a.m. It was supposed to be about how just because a girl is skinny, don't automatically assume she has an eating disorder. It might just be the fact that she can't gain weight no matter what she eats.
When I first started dating my bf, at the beginning of the summer when I weighed 80lbs, he told me that I had to gain weight. His dad asked me why I couldn't, I told them the same thing I tell everybody. I have a high metabolism, I can eat like 3-4 plates filled with food at buffets...lol..depends on how hungry I am; & that no, I am not anorexic or bulimic, no I never have been, & no I don't think that I'm fat. I will say right now, that I'm so not fat in fact that I don't really have any curves. I'm 20 years old, & people mistake me for a 13-15 yr old. To prove the fact that I am not anorexic or bulimic & that I do like to eat, when my bf's dad took me, him & his friends out to dinner at Buffalo Wild Wings..I ate 2 or 3 less wings than the guys did...plus a lot of french fries..When my bf & I go out to eat, I always eat something, even if I'm really not all that hungry.

In conclusion to this very long....rant? I guess...I'm just saying that yeah I'm skinny, no i don't have an eating disorder, yeah i can eat a hella lot of food..If I'm not hungry it's because I'm either full from eating earlier, or my stomach hurts, not cuz I think i'm fat. I don't. I also think there should be more articles on how to gain weight, not all of us need to lose it.

Saturday, 29 August 2009

Advice...

So it's almost 4.30 in the a.m & I can't sleep. For anyone that might read this, if you need any advice on pretty much anything, I can probably help. If I can't, I'm sorry. I've dealt with every type of guy, I've had numerous relationships, been cheated on & lied to. I finally found the right guy..for now. I have lesbian, gay & bi friends, & have had to help them with their problems too. I'm dating an 18 yr old guy, & have to deal with his 18 yr old friends, so I know what goes through their minds, & how to deal with them. I have younger guy friends thanks to high school.

If you need any advice, I guess leave a comment on here, or email me. musiqisluv1989@aol.com

Friday, 28 August 2009

Pics & Quotes

The photography is mine, the quotes are not. I am not creative enough to make up my own quotes, don't gripe if I use on of yours, it just means that I liked it. If you have a photo like mine, don't even try to complain. I'm a photography major, each on of these pix is mine, unless stated otherwise.

One different from all the rest. Each of us has been altered in a way only we know about..

& she talks about him as if he put the sun in the sky♥

♥So lets like in the grass & count the stars, live in the moment & figure out who we are
♥I know we're good together. You're the only person I can be myself around, even if I don't know who that person is.
♥There's always a wild side to every innocent face.
♥ He doesn't just give me sparks, he gives me the whole fireworks show
♥ You never live until you find someone worth dying for
♥ He gives me the feelings I've never felt
♥ Rest assured that when I make you nervous & I'm going to extremes. Tomorrow I will change & today won't mean a thing.
                ---- Alanis Morissette
♥ Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet. Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are.
                --- Alanis Morissette
♥ The world I love, the tears I drop. To be part of the wave can't stop. Ever wonder if it's all for you?
                ---- Can't Stop. The Red Hot Chili Peppers
♥ I heard your voice through a photography. I thought it up. It brought up the past.
                ---- The Otherside. The Red Hot Chili Peppers

Monday, 03 August 2009

Currently
Love Story
By Taylor Swift
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It's been a very long time since I've actually blogged about anything on Xanga, I'm mostly on here looking for quotes & icons... I figure no one cares enough to read about my current rants, wants, and anything else that pops into my head. I've thought about making a site dedicated to icons & quotes, & throw in some of my photography. But I figured that anyone that I took the quotes & icons from would just complain,even if I didn't take the credit for them, which I wouldn't. I can't make icons, nor am I creative enough to come up with quotes on my own. I write horror stories, not cutesy quotes. I have no artistic ability, unless you count my photography skills.
So if I do "jock" someones quotes & icons, I am not nor will I ever claim them as my own. However, any pictures that I post are my own, whether they look like yours or not. If you don't like that, that just sucks for you.